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Apoorvaa S Raghavan's avatar

I’m really proud of you for writing this and even prouder of you for stepping away to get help. Sending love <3

Chiedza's avatar

Lenny, I love this poem, especially because it seems to be a very familiar storyπŸ˜­πŸ˜­β€ΌοΈI hope you are okayπŸ«‚πŸ«‚or at least i hope you will be

Okhethwe'nkosi🀍's avatar

πŸ«‚πŸ₯Ήβ€οΈ!!!! I cried a bit here. You're super talented mama ❀️

DAI's avatar

Wow man 😭❀️ you always find a way to amazing me , I get it hey , I have nothing to offer rn but tswara πŸ«‚

Moeletsi's avatar

"I've become fluent in healing on paper

My life still stutters"

Perhaps your pen writes hope on paper, Perhaps your pen writes a future version of your life

Perhaps your pen knows a future version of you won't stutter.

Maybe you'll always stutter because that's part of being human

Your life might always stutter because it's the first time being here and doing life.

Stuttering doesn't mean you won't get to the point.

You'll always get to the point.

The way you get to it is imperfect because you're human.

The pen tries to write guidelines and gets to the point quicker.

The pen just tries to reflect what you yearn for.

The pen puts out your deepest desires and puts them on paper.

Sometimes that is mistaken as accomplishment or healing.

But you know deep down your pen wouldn't be able to write if you were truly healed.

Yet we write because we want to see what we are yearning for.

Seeing the disparity between life and πŸ–Š .

It feels like stuttering because why are we not healed like what the πŸ–Š left behind?

So dear πŸ–Š s thanks for displaying what we want to be formally.

We will still stutter nonetheless.

It is in our nature.

Because stuttering doesn't equate to not healing.

The things y'all wrote that we yearn for fuels our desire to grow and heal.

So dear πŸ–Š so long as I yearn I will keep moving forward, if it means life will stutter then so be it, I'll reach what I desire nonetheless.

Even if πŸ–Š stops writing, so long as I yearn I will keep stuttering because I am human.

~Moeletsi.

This was supposed to be a shot comment but that line you said got me thinking.

Yara in Bloom 🌸☁️'s avatar

Lenny the talent that you have is unmatched. The way this was written, I felt everything you were saying, I felt everything your body and mind have been screaming in silence for help. The mind is such a complicated thing, the same thing that can give you comfort can be the very thing to tear you apart and create a never ending hole. I want to say that I resonated with a few things in this piece sometimes I wish I could run from my own mind, scared of the silence because maybe just maybe it’ll let my mind wonder to the pits of darkness in there. So often my mind feels like it’s going 100 miles per her hour and I always hated it but maybe it’s a protective mechanism, maybe it’s my mind trying to save itself from itself… anyway. I’m so proud of you for continuing to seek help, I hope that writing this piece brought some sort of comfort to you. To leave you with this little piece β€œ sometimes we are hateful towards ourselves because that’s all we know. Others may have taught us whether subconsciously or consciously that being hateful and harsh on ourselves is acceptable. β€œ sending you so much love and hugsπŸ’• I’m so proud of youβœ¨πŸ’•